Motherhood is...

Hi there! I (Bryana), took some time to myself the day before Mother’s Day. I wrote in my journal and I though I’d share it with you. My entry is below.

Right now I have two little boys. They are 2.5 year olds and14-weeks old. This season of life is very much in the category of: “long days and short years.”

To all the mothers out there - I see you and you are incredible! To all those desperately wishing to be mothers and/or experiencing grief, loss, trauma - I see you and I feel deeply for you.

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Motherhood is…

Forgetting what year it is as you write the date at the top of your journal page

loving your babies so fiercely it hurts

wanting time alone desperately,

and itching to get back to them once you do get your time to yourself

having goals of a strenuous solo hike and yoga session,

and realizing you’re tired from being a mom and mostly laying in your hammock

wondering why you didn’t bring more snacks

appreciating your own mother more than ever

gratitude for the privilege of being their world, and them being yours

wondering in the same day how things could get any better, and then how they could get any worse

wishing every professional interaction (and personal for that matter) could be prefaced with, “I’m just a little off right now because I have two small children to care for…”

wishing the world had more empathy and respect for mothers

crying because it’s so hard

crying because it’s so beautiful

wondering why you ever thought you were busy or stressed before parenthood

feeling delight and awe, as well as mind-boggling frustration daily

so much genuine laughter, silliness, and play

the sweetest moments you’ve ever known

the greatest challenge, the greatest love, the greatest life adventure, the greatest gift.

Photos by Loon Lake Portraits - thank you Marisa!!